Currently afraid of:
Need

Currently grateful for:
Want

Currently pissed off about:
Avarice

Random thoughts:
Went to Vortex tonight. It's such good stuff. The Austin @ers went with us. It's amazing how motivated you can get for something just by interacting with other people who have been so thoroughly entrenched in it themselves. For as long as I can remember I had no interest at all in recruitment... but after hearing Rusty's suggestions on recruitment and retention, I can honestly say I'm ready to jump right into the recruitment efforts.

Justin's dog fell asleep against me tonight at the @ house. I was a bit unnerved by it when it happened; after spazzing out for no apparent reason the lil thing jumped up on the couch and nuzzled up against my side and promptly conked out. I can't remember the last time something slept so closely to me, much less someone. It was a strangely nostalgic moment, and even though everyone else in the room was making merry with stories of "Dick in a Box" and the surgery game that Justin was demonstrating on his Wii, I found myself caught up in the tiny microcosm that was just me and Butters, the dog. I was touched, I suppose, in the stereotypical sappy way that people experience it in movies when they see the birth of a child or the marriage of two close friends. I found myself a smidge depressed. In that brief moment before Justin spirited away his dog to go to bed, I wanted nothing more than to have someone of my own I could sleep with.

It's a really odd situation. It's like a drug, I guess. I love having a bed all to myself so that I can roll around and splay out my arms and legs. The thought of keeping sleep a solitary activity was natural to the point where anything else just felt wrong. But I have a feeling that the more I get accustomed to the touch of someone else beside me before I drift into sleep, the more I'll want it... and need it.

A mixed blessing, I guess you could call it?